When I Wasn't Looking...

Hi, Prowlers. I suppose it's time for an update, isn't it?

It was a month ago that I declared I'd be returning to fidelity, even though it had been a couple months before that since I had been with anyone besides Hubby. Here we are, a month later, and I still haven't played with anyone except the guy who put the ring on my finger decades ago.

But here's the funny thing. You're most likely to meet someone special when you're not looking. That's what happened to me.

And I really wasn't looking.  Seriously.

You know that JJ and I celebrated two years together and decided that we'd take a break but not count out getting back together. JJ knows he's very special to me.  He also knows that he's too busy for me. Way too busy.

I don't consider myself high maintenance, but I'm also not "no maintenance." Just like anybody else, I want to know that someone wants to chat or write or talk with me. I want to know that he cares about what's going on in my daily life, at least to some degree.  When you're "with" someone who knows nothing at all about what's going on in your life, are you really "with" him?

I don't know, but I'm leaning toward "no.".

Anyway, along came.....hmmm, what should I call him?  Let's go with Smart 'n' Sweet Guy (SNS Guy)  for now. Along came SNS Guy, not suddenly, but he's been around for awhile. A PWK reader, he wrote to me in the fall about a post I'd written. He was very kind, sensitive, well-spoken (well-written?).  We exchanged a few more emails, infrequently, through the new year. Slowly, things heated up through late-April and they ignited in early May.

I'm smitten.

And we haven't met in person yet. We live in different states, so meeting is a bit of a logistics challenge, but we have a plan to meet soon.

This is new for me.  I know what you're thinking, "Kat, how can anything be new for you?" Well, this is definitely new. Over the course of my prowling career, I've become accustomed to a little bit of getting-to-know-you (emphasis on "little) and then jumping into bed before there's any emotional involvement. Sometimes it follows, sometimes it doesn't, but the rule was always to guard my heart, for obvious reasons, until I knew it was safe to let it go. It didn't go that way with my first affair, but that was a long, long time ago. The few times I've cared first, I ended up hurt.

Here I am, in the deep end of the emotional pool with SNS Guy, and its much scarier than just meeting someone for sex. This is much more than sex and he's much more than just "someone."

He had been right in front of me and I didn't really notice, until I wasn't looking anymore. Then I saw him.

Now I can't get him off my mind.