Showing posts with label FFF. Show all posts
Showing posts with label FFF. Show all posts

Friday, June 6, 2014

My Lover or My God?

I think of him with longing every day.
The thoughts of him flow gently in and out of my consciousness
Like a thick but fading fog giving way to the gentle breezes of morning.
I'm cold.

Is the cold because of his absence or my nakedness?
I know I can't resist my desire for his presence.
The more I try, the more I need. The more I need, the more I fear.
I'm afraid.

I fear that my need won't be satisfied and that it will.
In the confusion of my own feelings I turn one way, then the other
Unable to commit to staying or going, diving in with my whole heart or walking away.
I'm ashamed.

I feel shame for wanting him like I do.
Echoes of childhood prayers and devotions reverberate through my soul,
Clouding my thoughts and intensifying my loneliness.
I'm alone.

In the calm of my solitude, I find clarity.
He fills me and fulfills me as no one else ever could.
I fall to my knees, look up, and open myself to him.
I'm free.

But who is the subject of my longing?
My lover or my God?

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I started this as a response to this week's FFF, but the picture really didn't do anything for me or help me go where I wanted to go with the sentiment of the poem. So, I just went my own way.

Many of us struggle with the nagging choice between prowling and fidelity, between the morality we grew up with and the fulfillment we need now. Often we come to understand that it's not a choice between one or the other, but a mosaic of choices, mistakes, passion, loss, and love that makes up our life.

Friday, January 10, 2014

FFF - 1/10/14 - The Glass Ball

Stacy and Joe meandered through they shops they found in a hidden alley on St. Martin.  Stacy wore her orange bikini with a matching choker around her neck and matching  sarong tied around her hips. While every man they passed turned to look at her, Joe seemed not to notice.  His eyes were glued to his iPhone and had been from the time they got off the ship. There was no cell service on their cruise ship, so he used every shore excursion to catch up on work, email, and whatever else he did. Stacy was never sure what he was doing on that thing.

Stacy was clearly frustrated at his lack of attention.  She stepped into a small glass shop and pulled him in with her. She moved toward the back of the shop, which was only six feet away, and she untied her bikini top and tucked it into her bag.  She reached out to the nearest shelf and picked up a beautiful glass ball, turned toward Joe and said, "Don't you think this is a particularly nice piece?"

Joe mumbled, "Yeah, get it," without even looking up. Stacy sighed.

Then a voice came from behind another shelf. "It's very nice, but not nearly as beautiful as the woman holding it."  She turned and saw an attractive man, probably in his 40's, admiring her. That got Joe's attention,, and he rushed to Stacy's side, took the glass ball from her hands and ordered her, to put her top back on. She did so very slowly. The attractive man came over and helped her tie the strings behind her neck.  Joe just stared.

Before she left the shop, she grabbed the glass ball and paid for it.  She smiled at the attractive man as she left the shop.

As they stepped into the alley, Joe put his phone in his pocket and his arm around his wife.

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Friday, November 22, 2013

Why I Can't Respond to This Week's FFF Prompt

Here's this week's FFF photo prompt.

Unfortunately, I cannot participate this week by writing a couple hundred words of fiction about it.

I have a very good reason, though.

I fully expected to write something until I saw the photo prompt of the naked woman sitting on gravel.  I wasn't put off by the flippers, although that is pretty fucking weird, or the binoculars or the vehicle or the county road or how freakishly skinny she is.

It was the gravel. First, sitting on gravel naked hurts.  Yes, I have firsthand knowledge of this. For those of you who don't, remember how it feels walking on gravel in bare feet. Now imagine that feeling on your butt, thighs, and maybe even  your tender woohoo.  Ouch!  It's even more painful to be laying naked on your back on a gravel riverbank with your legs wrapped around a guy while he fucks you long and hard. Imagine bits of gravel embedded into your back and ass with a few pieces finding their way further up your ass than anyone intended.

You avoid saying anything during the act because you don't want to ruin his fun, but you lose it when afterwards he asks, "Was that really great for you, too, Baby? It was awesome for me."  You want to yell, "Who the fuck are you?!?" but you realize it's a bit late for introductions, so you just start crying and whimper, "Help me." You're trying to sit up by yourself, but lifting up your back presses your hips deeper into the gravel. Rolling onto your side just exposes more tender skin to the gravel.

He finally helps you up and looks at your back. "Holy shit," he yells. "Why didn't you tell me??"  You sniffle, wipe your nose with your arm, and say, "You were having such a good time and I didn't want to bother you." The second that comes out of your mouth, you realize what an idiot you are, first for not saying anything at the time and then for saying anything now.

He starts picking the rocks out of your skin, starting with your butt and lower back so you can sit in the car while he does the rest. Some of them can be brushed off easily; some need to be picked out by his fingernails; several are embedded so deep that he pulls out his pocket knife to pry them out.

"We should get you to the clinic," he says, but you object loudly, "No!" because you're 17 and you really need to make sure your mother knows nothing about this. You remind him that he's 22 and it makes sense for both of you to just handle this yourselves.  He agrees, and gets back to work.

It takes about 30 minutes to remove all of the rocks, and what you thought was just a little blood at first turns out to be enough blood to soak his t-shirt. You finally agree to go to the clinic.

It all becomes more embarrassing at the clinic when the doctor takes one look at you and says casually, "It looks like you've been down at the river today." You think, oh my god, he knows what we were doing, but it quickly becomes clear that he doesn't really care and you find strange comfort in the fact that other girls have gone through the same thing.

You lay there naked for an hour while the doctor inspects every scratch and hole, pulling out little shards that the guy you're never going to fuck again missed. He cleans all the wounds. He throws 2-3 stitches into five of the holes that are too big to just close on their own. He carefully puts some antibiotic ointment all over your back and decides against bandaging the larger wounds because the tape would keep the surrounding smaller and medium sized ones from healing as fast. He offers some pain medication which you eagerly take because, duh, why not? Then after getting a prescription for more antibiotic cream, you finally get out of there.

Your former fuck buddy offers to give you a ride home, but you politely decline and catch a bus home after picking up your things at his place. Home is 500 miles away and your mother thinks you're spending a week with some friends. His car would have been more comfortable than the bus, but you don't care. On the bus, you lean forward the whole way home because it hurts to lean back.

When you get home, you realize you have to tell somebody because you can't put the antibiotic cream on by yourself, so you ask your brother to help. Horrified as he sees your back for the first time, he asks how it happened.  You simply say "gravel."  It takes him about 10 seconds, but then he starts laughing and taunting you. "Maybe you should have been on top." "I don't think this what they mean when they say, 'Don't come aknockin' if the trailer's ROCKin'." "Do you really like this guy?  Do you think he'll give you a big ROCK or a ring with lots of little ROCKS?"

Mercifully, it doesn't take him long to finish the medicine task. It takes weeks for your back to fully heal and he dutifully helps you every day.  Because you can't bear the idea of suffering the humiliation of one more person knowing about it, you refuse to go to a doctor to have the stitches removed and you talk your brother into doing it instead. He agrees, of course, because he thinks pulling out stitches is pretty cool.

Fortunately, your mother never finds out and everything heals well without infection. The long distance guy eventually quits calling when you refuse to talk to him. You think you can finally leave it behind you. Except for one thing.

The gravel. You have a sick pit in your stomach now whenever you see gravel.  Any type of gravel, anywhere. This traumatic response still affects you over 30 years later.

That's why I can't write about this week's FFF prompt of the naked woman sitting on gravel.


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Friday, November 15, 2013

FFF 11/15 - The Photograph

It's time for my contribution to Flash Fiction Friday. Visit Advisor54's site to see how others addressed this scrumptious photo prompt. His challenge was to make him come in 100 words. I stole a few more.

If he were here I am pretty sure I could make him come with substantially fewer than 100 words; however, considering the distance I'm thinking that only a teenage boy could come that quick....and what's the virtue in coming so fast, anyway? I prefer to take my time.

Here it is.  I give you The Photograph.



The photo was the only memento she had from their night together. It reminded her of his strength and forcefulness, but it couldn't show the way he had slowly and meticulously prepared her for that moment when the timer snapped the picture.

It was the way he deftly touched and kissed her all over - everywhere - not letting her move or object, that took her breath away. By the time the camera clicked, she was dizzy, nearly blind with passion. Her body had taken over and was responding only to him and the pleasure he was giving her. Time disappeared. When he had exacted every last orgasm her body could produce, he was gone.

It was the best night of her life, and all that remained was a photo.


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Friday, August 16, 2013

FFF 8/16/13 - Who's Watching?



I couldn't have been in the restroom for more than 3 minutes and I came out to find her already riding my husband. Couldn't she have waited a few minutes? I thought this was something we were going to do together.  That's what he told me, at least.

"C'mon, Katie," he said. "It'll be fun! And you've been telling me for months that you think Steve is hot."

That was true, but thinking he's hot and watching his young girlfriend bouncing on my husband are two completely different things.

I wanted to cry.  Maybe it was because Joe looked like he was really getting into it. Is she better than me?  Maybe it was because I felt left out.  Maybe it was because something that was supposed to be fun now felt like an obligation, something that I had to get through so I could get out of there. 

Maybe I was just in over my head.  Maybe I was just not cut out for this kind of kinky stuff.

I slipped out my mother-of-the-bride gown and Steve finally looked up at me and smiled. I walked over and he stood and kissed me.  Very nice, but I was still self-conscious. 

He sat me on the couch and took off my bra and my panties. I felt so exposed and, compared to his 20-something girlfriend who was coming for the second time across the room, old.

Steve put me at ease by slowly kissing my neck, my breasts, moving further down my body.  As he did, he said, "I know in the reception I said that my son was the luckiest man alive, but I lied." Then, just as he plunged his tongue inside me he moaned, "I am."

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It's Flash Fiction Friday! Here is the prompt for today that goes along with the photo:

Word Length = 200
Required Word = Obligation
Forbidden Words = Payment, Prediliction, Prostitution
Extra Credit = Make it personal
Bonus Words = 25 extra for explaining the tuxedos, 25 more if this isn't about the money

Would you like to read what other bloggers wrote? Head over to Advizor54's blog to see.

Friday, April 12, 2013

FFF - Hot Tub - 4/12/13

As Lisa carried the third load of photography equipment to the remote campsite from the SUV she could tell that she was beginning to simmer with anger.  He could have parked closer, for gosh sake. And not only that.  When she signed up to be an intern for this photographer, she knew she'd be carrying equipment, but she thought they'd be doing fashion and advertising shoots.  She also thought she'd be learning more about lenses and lighting than...well, this stuff.

"Lisa, can you add some more wood to the fire pit.  Don't light it yet.  We don't want to roast the girls."

The two women who were to be the subjects of the photo session giggled.  They were already standing naked next to the big pot. Lisa added the wood and then brought over a step stool to help them climb up into their "hot tub" which was never going to be hot. After they were in and the displaced water came up to their waists, she stepped away with the stool.  Dave, the photographer, lit the fire.

He started taking pictures quickly so he could finish up and get them out of there before the water got too hot, but he had some time to play with. At first he asked them to strike a few specific poses for him.  Then he told them to just "do each other."

Oh please, Lisa thought. I didn't know 'just do each other' was a technical term in photography. She stepped back and leaned against a tree to watch.  She knew she wouldn't be noticed until they were done, and she was pretty sure that today they wouldn't be done until they had all finished fucking each other on the blanket for a while.

As she watched the girls 'doing each other' she was surprised at how erotic the scene was. They were beautiful, and they were slowly making love to each other, ignoring the camera. Lisa shifted a little as she noticed her nipples were hard and her panties were becoming moist. She reached a hand under her t-shirt so she could pinch one of her nipples. She slid her other hand in her shorts and touched herself as she watched the girls pleasure each other.  She was right.  No one noticed her at all.

At some point, she didn't remember exactly when, she closed her eyes and imagined that she was bent over the tailgate of the SUV and Dave was fucking her forcefully.  She imagined herself gagged with her hands tied behind her back like she'd seen him do with some of his "models." She felt herself starting to cum when she heard it.

"Lisa!"

She opened her eyes and they were all staring at her. Her breathing was ragged and her hand was soaked with her juices. She didn't know what to say.  She was frozen in place.

Dave smiled and said, "Take off your clothes and join them in the tub."

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For those of you who don't know, FFF is Fast Fiction Friday, a weekly writing "activity" for bloggers.  We get a photo prompt and a title (this one is Hot Tub), a keyword to insert (simmer was this week's word), and a word limit (400 words this time; yes, I know I exceeded that). If you'd like to see what others wrote on this topic, you can find the links on Advizor's site. I thoroughly enjoy the different perspectives that different writers contribute.  If you're a blogger, feel free to join!  You can get more information on Advizor's site. Everyone is welcome.  Your contribution doesn't have to be sex-related, but most of the prompts are.

Friday, February 22, 2013

FFF - Lighten Up!

Derek had been her best friend long before she introduced him to her roommate, Lisa. In the 8 years that she had known him, he had become like a brother to her.  There was no one she trusted more.  He was always the first call she made when she needed help. He was always there for her. And now he was dating Lisa.

Derek spent the night the night before, which was becoming more and more common. Lisa had to go to work early, waving at Sarah who was eating breakfast in their little kitchenette on her way out.

Sarah laughed as Derek stumbled out of the bathroom and into the kitchen.

"Looks like you had another sleepless night," she said. "That's what it sounded like, too." She giggled and took another bite of cereal.

"Whatever," he grunted as he poured himself a cup of coffee. He sat down at the table and they started to chat about their plans for the day.

After a few minutes, he wanted more coffee and she wanted to put her cereal bowl away, and they both stood up at once and ran into each other. She looked up into his eyes and he looked down into hers.  They both froze. Neither said anything. His expression transformed from blank to confused to predatory.

Then he kissed her - forcefully, deeply, hungrily. She didn't think at all.  She just started pulling off his shirt, then hers, and then there was a flurry of activity as they tried to keep kissing while they pulled off their clothes and tossed them aside.

He pushed her over the table, forcing her to bend at the waist, and he drove into her from behind before she had a chance to grab onto the edges of the table. They both moaned loudly as he entered her.

He reached under her and started stroking her clit.  She responded by grinding against his hand and bucking back against his cock. She came quickly, surprising herself as well as Derek, and he wasn't far behind, pounding her mercilessly until his relief finally came.

After, they both collapsed on the floor, saying nothing, not even looking at each other at first.

Derek was the first to speak. "Wow," he said. "Did you see that coming?

"Nope," said Sarah, still looking straight ahead.

"I didn't see it coming,"he said, "but I've always wanted it to."

That was the beginning of a long discussion.  They decided to lay down on the floor and relax as they talked, kissing each other sweetly every now and then.

Without warning, Lisa burst through the door and ran into the kitchen saying, "I forgot my.....," her voice trailing off as she saw them.


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Read the other stories written by bloggers on the same topic for Flash Fiction Friday (FFF).

By the way, I went over the word limit, but I don't care. LOL.

Friday, January 25, 2013

Flash Fiction Friday - Only Filtered Light

When she arrived at his room, she saw a blindfold hanging on the door knob with a note attached.

"Put on the blindfold and knock on the door."

Now she was really scared. She met him an hour ago in a chat room for UCLA students and now she was standing at his door, sans panties, about to blindfold herself and turn herself over to him. She wondered what she had been thinking, but even as she wondered, she put on the blindfold and knocked on the door.

She heard the door open and someone took her hand and pulled her inside. As soon as the door clicked shut behind her, he whispered in her ear, "Take off your clothes."

She complied quickly, sliding out of her shoes, slipping her jeans down, taking off her sheer over-blouse and pulling off her tank top. She felt him slide her over-blouse back on her arms.

"Keep this on," he said, and he took her hand again, leading her across the room.

There were so many things she wanted to say, but he had clearly instructed her not to speak unless her asked her a question, so she held back.

"Get on the bed," he said. "It's right in front of you."

She reached out and felt it and started to sit.

"On your hands and knees," he snapped.

She scurried into position. He sat on her back and starting binding her ankles when there was a knock on the door.  Quickly cinching the knot he told her, "Stay," and he got up to answer the door.

She turned her head toward the sound of the footsteps but all she could see through the blindfold was filtered light. She heard greetings.  At least four men walked in.  Then she heard one speak above the others.

"So, who's first?"

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Friday, February 17, 2012

Flash Fiction Friday 2-17-12: "A Ballet on Silk Sheets"

Daunt here. This will be the first time I've participated in Flash Fiction Friday. This weeks rules are to write about the photo below using 100 words or less, and include the word "folded". Let's see how we do.
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Lust, tension, and primal urgency well up within him. His body was on its own course now, no longer accepting directives from his mind. Looking down he finds her face glowing with passion and desire. With her legs folded beneath him he basks in the sensation of a final powerful thrust. Shuddering, he closes his eyes. He gently slips from her and sits back. Slowly his eyes open settling on the rose. His heart swells with emotion awestruck at her submission, but he begins to wonder, had he become the slave?
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